Monday was a wonderful day and I guess I planned it that way! I didn’t want any negative thoughts to enter my mind… Tuesday, not so good! But it’s Valentines day, so I am trying not to think about those nasty negative thoughts that we sometimes allow to overwhelm us!
HERE WE GO AGAIN!
It’s Mid January and “here we go again!” I am out on one of my fun shopping sprees, I lean to the left and reach for a package on the bottom shelf. “Ouch!” Pain shoots through my ribs like a knife. I sit still for a few minutes and hope that it will go away quickly. Although it lightens up, it doesn’t go away.
I rest through the weekend and then on Monday morning, I send a text message to my oncologist. I tell him what happened on Friday and ask if I should make an appointment with him or my primary care physician. Since I feel like I pulled a muscle, He says either one would work. So I make an appointment to see him on Tuesday.
You are probably wondering why I want an appointment with an oncologist when I feel like I pulled a muscle. The answer is easy, the last time I thought I pulled a muscle, I suffered for several months before getting it checked out. As everybody knows, it turned out to be Ovarian Cancer and thus started my 2016 nightmare.
During my doctors appointment we decide that it probably is just a pulled muscle, but, let’s check it out to make sure. Off to the radiologist for a CTScan. Drinking that chalky shake is always my favorite thing to do first thing in the morning. Not to mention another day of getting that awful dye out of my body! NOT!
The following week, we get the results from the CTScan, and unfortunately we see some small nodules and now we need to have a biopsy to confirm. The doctor who performed the biopsy was so very cute and he has the nerve to have a beautiful head of curly hair. I ask if he could share, but no, he gets to keep his curls, darn!
Valentine’s Day: Off we go to the doctor for the results! I bring Amie along with me, because once my ears hear that awful word, you know the one that starts with a C… The next part of the conversation is just a lot of blah blah blah!
My wonderful doctor, and yes, I do love him, doesn’t look so good! After a little chitchat he tells us that our suspicion that the cancer has returned has been confirmed. It has been less than six months since my last chemo treatment; this means the treatment did not work.
So, in my thoughts I say, what’s next? Good question, I tell myself, as doc continues to talk about all the trial drugs they are using for cancer patients and although there is no cure, the more trials we perform, the closer we get to finding out what works, for the not so near future that is. (Sorry about that run on sentence.)
So, what’s the prognosis I don’t ask…. because you and I already know that only God can answer that question. It could be a month, six months, a year, five years… who knows… But, this I do know, I am not going to sit around and wait! I am going to live each day as if there won’t be another… that doesn’t mean I am going to go crazy or anything; it just means that I will continue reading and listening to my books. I will continue supporting my favorite authors, I will binge watch some of my favorite tv shows, and listen to my favorite music; and I love going out to dinner… will do that too! Oh oh oh, and although I probably won’t have a lot to say, I plan to continue writing my blog! 😀
So let’s end this post on a good note! Let me show you my indoor garden! I currently have 3 plants… well, two plants and some tulips! Here they are!
So, that’s all for today, and in closing, I hope that everyone had a wonderful Valentine’s Day! And as always, don’t forget to Live, Love, Laugh and by all means… Read!
Sharon
February 15, 2017 at 9:39 AM
Awesome may God bless you
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February 15, 2017 at 9:55 AM
Sharon, I cannot begin to imagine what you are going through, but your attitude is amazing, and I think you are awesome. I hate, hate, hate this news! But I love you. Live, laugh, love, read . . . and don’t hesitate to reach out.
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February 15, 2017 at 10:08 AM
Thank you Amy, love you too… and you know I will reach out.. I have many times already! And same back at you… especially if you get into a writing slump.. I will reach out and chat with Lou whenever necessary! She’s my bud! 😀
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February 15, 2017 at 11:59 AM
Louetta sends her love!
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February 15, 2017 at 3:06 PM
Hey lady! Hate to hear this! You have an amazing attitude and outlook! You will beat this! I will keep you in my daily thoughts and prayers and send good vibes out into the universe that this ‘C’ thing will go the hell away! Stay strong!
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February 15, 2017 at 3:23 PM
Thank you Jean, keep in touch… it was great hearing from you!
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February 15, 2017 at 4:01 PM
Sharon, you already know that I hate this news. But I love you and I’m behind you every step of the way. You brighten my every day with your contagious attitude and your smiley faces, and I hope I can channel some of that back your way as all of us go through this with you. Many prayers. ❤
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February 15, 2017 at 4:46 PM
Thank you Amy, love you too! Definitely gonna keep smiling, because life has been good to me! And sharing makes me happy!
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February 17, 2017 at 3:48 PM
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February 16, 2017 at 9:37 PM
I just got to your post and I’m pounding my fist on the table. Nooooo, I hate this news. But I also know that you have spirit and spunk and the ability to use your attitude to fight the bad C and keep on fighting and knowing that we are all behind you. With love from your blogging buddy… xoxo
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February 16, 2017 at 10:39 PM
Thank you Pam! If the cancer doesn’t get me, The insurance company will! I just spent three hours going over my bills and Medicare claims for just one month! And guess what? I have a financial/insurance background! Ugh! Crazy!
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February 17, 2017 at 1:44 PM
Crazy is a good way to describe the bureaucratic ( my guy spells it bigovernment) mess we need to deal with for insurance sake. Breathe in, breathe out, take a walk, and maybe curse a bit. ;-0
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February 18, 2017 at 9:58 AM
I HATE this news. As I started to read your blog, I thought, hmmm….what is she leading up to NEVER expecting to read what I did. There are no words to express how sorry I am but, you have a fantastic attitude and I believe that this is such a plus for you. Life is precious and you know that. You will make the best of each and every day. You have a loving, caring family and friends who will be cheering for you every single day. Go, Sharon….fight, fight, fight is our cheer. Sending you love and hugs. ❤️
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February 18, 2017 at 10:38 AM
Thank you Chris! Love and hugs right back at you! I have a great life and I intend to enjoy every bit of it! Thanks for coming by and commenting!
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