Monday was a wonderful day and I guess I planned it that way! I didn’t want any negative thoughts to enter my mind… Tuesday, not so good! But it’s Valentines day, so I am trying not to think about those nasty negative thoughts that we sometimes allow to overwhelm us!

HERE WE GO AGAIN! 

It’s Mid January and “here we go again!” I am out on one of my fun shopping sprees, I lean to the left and reach for a package on the bottom shelf. “Ouch!” Pain shoots through my ribs like a knife. I sit still for a few minutes and hope that it will go away quickly. Although it lightens up, it doesn’t go away.

I rest through the weekend and then on Monday morning, I send a text message to my oncologist. I tell him what happened on Friday and ask if I should make an appointment with him or my primary care physician.  Since I feel like I pulled a muscle,  He says either one would work. So I make an appointment to see him on Tuesday.

You are probably wondering why I want an appointment with an oncologist when I feel like I pulled a muscle. The answer is easy, the last time I thought I pulled a muscle, I suffered for several months before getting it checked out. As everybody knows, it turned out to be Ovarian Cancer and thus started my 2016 nightmare.

During  my doctors appointment we decide that it probably is just a pulled muscle, but, let’s check it out to make sure. Off to the radiologist for a CTScan. Drinking that chalky shake is always my favorite thing to do first thing in the morning. Not to mention another day of getting that awful dye out of my body! NOT!

The following week, we get the results from the CTScan, and unfortunately we see  some small nodules and now we need to have a biopsy to confirm. The doctor who performed the biopsy was so very cute and he has the nerve to have a beautiful head of curly hair. I ask if he could share, but no, he gets to keep his curls, darn!

Valentine’s Day:   Off we go to the doctor for the results! I bring Amie along with me, because once my ears hear that awful word, you know the one that starts with a C… The next part of the conversation is just a lot of  blah blah blah!

My wonderful doctor, and yes, I do love him, doesn’t look so good! After a little chitchat he tells us that our suspicion that the cancer has returned has been confirmed. It has been less than six months since my last chemo treatment; this means the treatment did not work.

So, in my thoughts I say, what’s next? Good question, I tell myself, as doc continues to talk about all the trial drugs they are using for cancer patients and although there is no cure, the more trials we perform, the closer we get to finding out what works, for the not so near future that is. (Sorry about that run on sentence.)

So, what’s the prognosis I don’t ask…. because you and I already know that only God can answer that question. It could be a month, six months, a year, five years… who knows… But,  this I do know, I am not going to sit around and wait! I am going to live each day as if there won’t be another…  that doesn’t mean I am going to go crazy or anything; it just means that I will continue reading and listening to my books. I will continue supporting my favorite authors, I will binge watch some of my favorite tv shows, and listen to my favorite music; and I love going out to dinner… will do that too! Oh oh oh, and although I probably won’t have a lot to say, I plan to continue writing my blog! 😀

So let’s end this post on a good note! Let me show you my indoor garden! I currently have 3 plants… well, two plants and some tulips! Here they are!

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This is a Philodendron; I love them because they are very hard to kill! And they are pretty too! The little turtle on the left, Dana made it for me for Valentine’s Day, isn’t it adorable? And that pretty little girl on the right, that would be Madelynn! Isn’t she precious?
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You’re  gonna love this! I don’t have a clue as to what this is called! The tag said foliage; LOL… okay then… why did I buy it? Because the tag also said it had been known to change bad moods into good ones! How about that? And I thought it was pretty too! Hard to see in this pic, but that’s Dana peeking through the foliage with a great big toothless smile! 😀
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My tulips; aren’t they lovely? Amie brought them home for me one day just because! She didn’t say just because, I did, it’s one of my favorite sayings. It gives the reader a blank slate! Just fill in the blank with whatever kind thought you would like.

So, that’s all for today, and in closing, I hope that everyone had a wonderful Valentine’s Day! And as always, don’t forget to Live, Love, Laugh and by all means… Read!

Sharon

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